ends up like this? again? blah.

do you know i always act happy just for you? do you know actually i'm crying?

do you know actually i'm screaming?

and i have to face it everyday.

gue kira miracle itu ada.

hah. ya, real mature dar.

sekarang gue mau muntah tiap gue inget waktu gue yang gue buang2 percuma selama hampir 3 taun. buat sesuatu yang gue tau gue gabakal dapet. pretty stupid ha.

lo tau cape?

gue lepasin semua yang udah gue dapet cuma buat nungguin itu. ha-ha-ha.

gue cape.

i read a quote that said

don't you waste your time on something that doesn't even worthed

well, i ignored that cause at that time, i was too blah that believed my life is a fairytale, miracle could happen, and bla bla what so ever.

but now i know that's absolutely true. ha-ha.