stop telephoning me

i don't know but doubt seems to like to follow me these days.

if doubt is a person, i would love to...

-punch him in the face

-scream that he is a trash, no one need him

-said to him that he is not belongs to anyone

-wish him all the bad luck

-said that he has no future

-bazooka him

yeah. but doubt isn't a person, it's a habit. bad bad habit.

ugh. doubt is silly personality.

it's like someone's telephoning me all the time. no end.

doubt make me feel tired and sick.

i hope one day it'll go away and never have to be in my mind anymore.

i want them to go away

a major change, and i was wrong.

"i love the spotlight so much, so i won't let it go that easy"

-Rachel Berry, Glee S2 : Audition.

gue tau gue yang salah. dan emang selalu gue yang cari masalah. gue minta maaf.

i was stupid for having that fear. but i just love myself too much. so i went so selfish.

you see, i'm really sorry.

but i think sorry won't change anything. unless i change myself.

i don't care if it would hurt me. though i've already fell.

i'll try to forget about everything that has been done in the past.

though everything i did is worthless.

i'm not being my self. it hurts. but if i do, it would hurt me even more.

and i don't care how many times i've said this, but i'm sorry. for everything i did in the past, and everything i'll do, in the future.

postless

hey guys so how's your week?
mine's sweet berry bizzeehhh. like how busy? as busy as the city hustle and bustle (?)
well kay that made none sense.
haah soorry i'm so postless yet i'll be more postless for the next 3 months.....

ah and btw, i've been in a roller coaster ride these weeks....
you know, sometimes i went so high like i could almost touch the sky (yeah it's so blah naah i wasn't could actually 'almost touch the sky' but you get what i mean eh?)
but then i went down, i fell, so hard and i went for a big round lane whoooooo
it's so random....
i want to smile, as wide as i could, i felt like a princess i could sing!-_- but in the same time i felt so plastic bag i could cry and scream as loud as i could.
hhhh i like it but i'm tired but i really love it so... haha labil=.=

and btwwww my class made a dream board of 9G!
i wrote my name for SMAN 70! wml guyss:)
haaaah this senior year is awsuum:)
love it love it love it!