xoxo xxxv!

today is epic. awesome. lovely. great.
aaaah alhamdulillah today's performance went so well.............
thanks guys you are such a yay!
ah.
january's almost over...
febuary's counting...
well, i don't mind for febuary, though it's my fav month every year ;p
hahaha
but oh my goodness, ninth grade's almost over...
i do, i can't wait for senior high life, but man... is it me or junior high felt so fast?
well, i really can't wait for senior high...
but i will never gonna forget my junior high!
ily xxxv like crazeeh!

guess so, guess not, idk. oh so random!

hey folks! still midtest test week. wish me luck. wish you luck. wish everyone luck.

okay. so guess it's official for We Are Nine Glory/G ; warning. yeah! go warning2011!

btw,

i passed my fear to try chili on my food.

i passed my fear to talk in front of class, and from a lot of people

i passed my fear to ride roller coaster.

could i pass my fear, so i can be his best friend?

where am i? earth heaven.

so yesterday was Demi Lovato's birthday. happy birthday demi! okay, yesterday was friday. a beautiful one. so i started the day with a little bit lazy, cause i was still want to watch tv :( hahaha, never mind. and then when i arrived at school i told my friends about my new drawing. it's about guilty pleasure : chocolates and cake. hahaha, and they said : "darin, please, we're fasting" hahahaha sorry guys ;) but chocs are good though. after that, me, Tz, and Sr (names for privacy hehehe) did somekind of draw-a-thon. was like there's a piece of paper, and then Tz started a head, and then i continued with some creepy body accs, and Sr did the rest additionals. IT WAS SO FUNNY. like we were drawing some creepy animals, and one of them (a creepy horse) wears high heels (and that's one of my wild idea! hahahah) and we drew a punk rabbit too (but i'm not sure was that really a rabbit? cause it has wings! wk)
okay, then the others joined us, but not for draw-a-thon, for a circle. oh! btw, i almost forgot, me and my group in my class always do circle anytime there's a chance (haha!)
okay, so we did some jokes and they were all funny, (like what's not funny for us? hahahaha)
after that, we went home. sr gave me her nail to me and unfortunately i dropped it on the way home :( i'm sorry sr. but when i told her on ym, she was just laughing and told me that she can't believe that i was still holding it on the way home. and she told me about this FRED guy, MAN! he is such a man who got fame-o-landia from boredom. creative? guess so! hahah

and yesterday i had some jibber jabs with mom and she said that

life isn't all about how many people we know, but what we
contribute for our enviroment among us.

and that make sense! and that will be one of my favorite quotes. heheh

sophomore

tadi gue liat di web orang ada yang nulis,

"the more i said i don't
mind
the more i care.
the more i said i've move
on
the more i pretend i
forget"

wih, dalem tuh. haha. gue jadi inget beberapa taun yang lalu, gue bener2 drama queen. yah, sebenernya sekarang juga masih, tapi mendingan. mau main persenan? yah, kira2 20% perubahannya (oke sotoy tapi yah, kurang lebih)

dulu gue kalo gasuka sesuatu, nangis. sekarang cuma tampangnya cemberut, tapi gue gapuas, gue pengenya kalo gasuka datar, malah senyum. amin. haha.

gue tau gue perfeksionis, udah ada yang bilang. trus gue berkaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaali kali bilang gue harus berubah tralala trilili gamau diatur orang lain (kecuali keluarga gue) tapi ujung2nya, kalo udah ketemu orang2 lain itu, BYAARR lupa deh omongan gue sebelumnya, tetep aja diatur orang, tetep aja nurut kalo orang lain bilang gue harus ini harus itu. cheesy? i must admit, yes.

jadi inget, gue pernah punya masalah yang bener2 gue gasuka, gue nangis,
didepan orang2 banyak. itu malu2in banget, tapi ya itu gue yang dulu.
setelah gue nangis, diantara orang2 banyak itu tadi, ada yang bilang,
"kalo gue jadi lu sih, gue becandain
aja"
mungkin kesanya ngegampangin, apalagi buat such a drama queen like me, how
come?
tapi coba pikir lagi, yang diomongin dia bener juga lho, ngapain dibikin
pusing kalo gapengen pusing? ya ga? sekarang gue jadi mikir, how ridiculous i
was?!
orang tadi mungkin ga sengaja ngomong kaya gitu, tapi apa yang dia omongin,
gue bersyukur banget punya temen kayak dia. kalo gue pikir2, dia itu anaknya
easy going banget. kalo ada masalah, yah, jangan disesalin, selesein. gabisa? ya
udah, akuin gabisa, abis itu, belajar jangan sampe keulangin lagi. dia juga
anaknya jujur sama dirinya sendiri, dia gamau & gasuka, ya dia ga lakuin
walopun orang lain maksa dia. ya ngapain ngerjain sesuatu yang lu ga pengen? ga
penting pula. wasting time. woy, thanks ya, i hope i can learn from you
more.

sekarang gue mau get real, gue tau gue a loud girl, yah, kalo mau jadi kalem pasti butuh waktu. sekarang gue mau jadi gue yang biasa aja, tapi ga kaya dulu lagi. i want to be better, but still me.

oh ya btw, sekarang kan tanggal 15 Agustus, HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOSEPH ADAM JONAS!!! wish you all the best trus kapan kau kesekolah ku? keburu un niih. mungkin pas sma/kuliah?? haha just kidding joe! wkwkw

bit too much of those

my junior sent me Nick And The Administration's Who I Am last night... it got great instrument though, haha. it's my habbit that if i listen to a song, and i sorta like it, i'll search for the lyric. so i did search the lyric of this Who I Am song, and it said,

"I wanna someone to love me for who I am"

hahaha, and i was sorta thinking, this is soo me. hah, i know it sounds a bit cheesy, but i was thinking that way -_-"
okay, but i realized then, hey! i do have someone to love me for who i am. oops better! i have LOTS of people to love me for who I am :)) It's like what else? i've got everything! didn't mean to be show off or some kind of that, but that's life! it's like Allah have already give us EVERYTHING. but we, humans, just can't get enough. always ask for more. so do i. from now on, i'll try to be a more thankful person :) hihi wish me luck ;) and btw, tomorrow is the holy Ramadhan that we love :D

I'm sorry for all of my misbehave to you guys................................................
let's start a new page! have a happy Ramadhan guys :D

source web

i'm really lucky to have been born and meet you all. people who can make me laugh even though my eyes is drowning tears, who accept me as i am. and i never get bored to say, i love you all my friends :)

how can i say
Watashi wa anata no tomodachi ni nari tai!
to you?

eight grAde

today is the last day of eight grade! on thursday we're attending the final exam. i hope we'll get the best! amiin. hey all, i'm really really really sorry for everything that might hurt you all...

it was just yesterday i passed the seventh grade... now i'm attending eight grade's final exam! i hope we all passed this final exam all the best! aaaaaa time goes really fast!
i'll miss you guys. i'll miss all the fun we had in 8a :D

ya Allah i hope we'll pass this eightgrade with the best
score... amiin :D

i know i can't stop it now. but i know i'll survive somehow. it's just about time.

Sabtu, 27 Februari 2010

itu hari ulangtaun gue yang ke-14.hari itu gue juga dapet banyak banget pelajaran. banyak banget. tapi di tapi ada 1 pelajaran yang bener2 gue suka.
di hari itu gue belajar kalo hidup itu move on, kita harus melakukan yang terbaik di semua yang kita lakuin. itu bakal nganterin kita sukses.

jealous?

well, i'm a moody girl. i know. and i'm soooooo expressive. and i was some kind of ego-mood. and ego-mood is really bothering, i tell you.
it's like i can be jealous for things that not-so-important. ughhh. yes, i know it is sooooo bothering.

i was like everytime i signed in my facebook and saw my friends activites, i'm like "ohh how can't i get close like theeem? why oh why" ugh. i know. too much drama.
not just facebook. i can be jealous for really really not-so-important. oh! i mean so-not-important things! cheesy. and i was some kind of "ooooooooooooooh i wanna be like them. they are sooo cool but whoops i can't because i'm not like them hu-hu i'm not them and they didn't know who am i really is, oh oh oh but i rrrreeeeaaalllyy wanna be like theeeem oooh:((" cheesy-weezie, cheesy baby. hey! even babies didn't do that!

UGH. i'm sick of jealous thingy. i don't want to be like that anymore. sooo b.o.t.h.e.r.i.n.g.
and then i saw this ways to overcome jealous from a web (http://thinksimplenow.com/happiness/9-ways-to-overcome-jealousy/). and it's helping!
the web said, some ways to overcome jealous is these:

1. love your self
2. stop comparing
3. be realistic
4. "is it what we want for our selves??"

well those are so true. yes! it's like,

1. i LOVE my self.
2. yes, i should STOP comparing
3. i should.

and for number 4, i really really really SHOULD ask my self "is it what i want for my self?" yup. i should. because for this long, do i really want to be like others? now the answer is NO. NO. NO. in fact, i don't want to be like others (anymore). cause you know what, being like others is sooo like wearing other person's shoe. it's not fit in to my feet! and for this long, if i felt jealous it was like i wasn't not darin. it was like i'm darin. and i don't like it. i HATE it.

and if keep this oh-so-jealous thingy, i could be just a face in a crowd. do you get what i mean? oh of course you do. haha. soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo say good bye to all-stuffs-jealous and hello me-so-confident. hasta la vista jealous!

kemaren, sekarang, nanti

kemaren udah ga ada. ga bisa balik lagi walopun gue punya uang $10000000000000000000000 berapa juga kemaren gabakal balik lagi. gue tau.
kemaren emang ga bisa balik tapi gue bisa inget. gue bisa inget kemaren.

nah. karena gue tau gue ga bisa balik. sekarang gue harus hidup untuk sekarang dan nanti. dan belajar dari masa lalu. bukannya terperangkap di pikiran masa lalu. gue mesti maju terus.

i'm in a drama that i love to play a part.
and the title of the drama is life ♥

the time of my life -david cook

I've been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn't see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I'm coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin' my world start to turn

And I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I'm rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

So I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I'm out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I'm keeping my feet on the ground
My arms open wide
My face to the sun

I'll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.

war stops dream.

gue gak bisa ngubah orang. apa yang harus gue lakuin? gue ubah diri gue sendiri sama gak ikut ikutan. gampang kan?

here comes the sun

have you ever hear that song?
i just read a book my mom bought me.
it answered most of my questions. haha.

viva drawing!

IT'S MY LIFE

This ain't a song for the broken-hearted
No silent prayer for the faith-departed
I ain't gonna be just a face in the crowd
You're gonna hear my voice
When I shout it out loud

Chorus:
It's my life
It's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just wanna live while I'm alive
It's my life

This is for the ones who stood their ground
For Tommy and Gina who never backed down
Tomorrow's getting harder make no mistake
Luck ain't even lucky
Got to make your own breaks

Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, hell, don't back down

Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive

Chorus:
It's my life
And it's now or never
'Cause I ain't gonna live forever
I just want to live while I'm alive
(It's my life)
My heart is like an open highway
Like Frankie said
I did it my way
I just want to live while I'm alive
'Cause it's my life

girl next door

she dreams
she stands
she is there
chasing her dreams
chasing the rainbow
she is there
moving
she is there
in her way
she is there
laughs
smiles
she's the girl next door

friday

ya gue tau kok hari ini sabtu. bukan jum'at. gua suka semua hari. suka banget. tapi sekarang gua mau ngomongin jum'at.



+apa yang lo pikir kalo ada kata jum'at?
- baju putih, solat jum'at, pulang lebih cepet, pelajaran dikit, ketawa, temen2, les, kir.

+your best friday part?
- laughs, kir.

+kir?
- ekskul gua.

+seru?
- ya.

+apa yang paling seru kalo lagi kir?
- temen2 gue.

+balik lagi ke jum'at. cuma suka jum'at?
- nggak, gua suka semua hari kok.

+trus?
- ya gak gimana2, cuma kalo jum'at ada kir. itu bedanya



ga maksud lebay, tapi emang kalo jum'at itu bedanya ada kir. sebenernya kamis ada kir juga. tapi yang lama itu kir hari jum'at. kalo lebay maap. tapi gua bener2 seneng kalo kir. dari kelas 7. gua bisa ketawa-ketiwi sampe istilahnya 'kocok perut' kayak gimana juga ga pa pa kalo kir.

gua inget, waktu itu, waktu gua masih kelas 7. 7C. ada kakak kelas dateng ke kelas gua promosi KIR. pertamanya gua mikir, 'coba ah, kir kayak gimana'. akhirnya gua ngambil form kir. dan ternyata, hampir semua cewe 7c ikut kir.

waktu kir, kakak2 kelas 8 yang waktu itu sama temen2 gua kalo kir udah kayak maen aja. seru banget. pas percobaan sabun, itu seru banget. pas yang jeruk balon meledak juga itu seru banget. semuanya seru.

pas kelas 8, pemilihan ketua kir, gua inget, gua jadi kandidat. gua inget, gua maju kedepan. dan akhirnya gua kepilih jadi sekertaris. itu gua inget hari sabtu! hehe.

ldp, pameran, percobaan, semuanya!

gua seneng bisa masuk kir